37 posts from April 2008

I am so glad that it is mid way through the week, I was meant to go and check out football training tonight but it is too cold so I didn't and that really answers my question about playing, if I don't want to train in the cold i really wouldn't want to play in it. So instead I am going to go to the boxing gym as well as my normal gym, that way I get some cardio work outs as well.

So work is keeping me busy in a good way, I wish it was July though, I miss H very much, we try to keep emails at a minimum when working and I call when I can but when your at work and people are so close the calls aren't much.

So, come on July.

Tonight I am happy because two and a half men is on twice I love this show it is so funny.

OK..Time to go and make a cuppa and get ready for my show.

A cup of tea, tim tams and desperate housewives.

Sorry Babe the tim tams were too tempting :)

So I left somethings out of the last post the most important is being with H, she is so far away and I miss her.
I don't want to rush things but I do want her so much..sigh

So I have eight weeks and then I will meet her family and friends and I get to be in her arms again, now that makes me smile.

So..I know I want to be with her, but how I don't..thats my current concern, it is not a bad one but one that takes a lot of my thoughts.

Today I have spent a fair bit of time reflecting on what has been happening to me over the last year or so.
First up for those that don't know I left a partnership of ten years which also involved children last year, the relationship was not right for so many reasons and the separation has not been very nice and I am reminded often that this is all my doing. I am happy to take that blame because well I am happy more so then I have been in such a long time, I am not happy for hurting anyone with my actions but I am happy to be me again.
I feel free and I am loving my life again, this has been missing for far to long.

We have moved our headquarters at work this year, the job was intense and there are still things being fixed and changed to make it correct but in general it was a great move IT wise.

I have rebuilt the relationship with my friends that had been lacking due to my ex not really getting along with them, I have meet some great people here on Vox as well as Whitepages another blog site.

I had the chance to travel to Amsterdam and London and see such wonderful things.

I have also started a new relationship one that is equal and loving, it has it's challenges because she lives a world away, OK..not that far but she lives in the US and I am here in Australia we talk a lot and of cause emails, we spent our holiday together and I will go to her home in July and she will come to mine in December, we are both wanting this but are also taking all the time we need, it makes it more important to me that she doesn't expect to rush, we can and do talk about everything.

So I feel like I have moved forward so much this year and really the year has only just started, I love going to the gym which I do four days a week and soon I may take up playing football for the local girls club, maybe.

I have a lot to be thankful for and I have grown in ways I wouldn't of thought of, what a year.

What the fuck is up with people..first I have incompetent twits that I have to deal with all day..now that normally I can deal with but when it is more then three of them at once it is a bit much..but I survived the day to return home and find I can not park as the people above me are renovating and have filled the parking space with a skip..so I have to park half a fucking block away.

Then..to make the day just that bit more annoying I walk inside to find the fucking plumber has gone straight through the roof..seriously aren't tradesmen taught that there is a fucking depth to a floor..that if you bang away hard enough yep sure enough you will put a hole in the unit below you.

So..I have a fucking big hole in my bathroom ..the room is a fucking mess and a silly note saying sorry ..sorry doesn't cut it today you fucking idiot !!!!!!

OK..end of vent

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